B8: The day when I wrote a letter to the future me.

 

“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams”, Eleanor Roosevelt.

The day when I wrote a letter to the future me.

Hello there future me,

It is mid-September of the year 2020. Yes, the year which locked us down, gave us a ride of anxiety, stress, pressure, depression, free time, weight issues, health issues, employment issues, education, and economic downfall. In these wild times, what did you do? Watched multiple web series, and movies ate cheese, did chatting, did bed rest, mopped, and cleaned. OVERTHINKING? I guess in a large amount. And then, then what happened? You suddenly realized that you were waiting for things to get normal and by doing so you wasted a lot of time. But do you regret it? I guess not. Because in these few months, I did not get sick. I took a rest and distanced myself from the society. I got to detox my mindset and have clear visions of what I want and what is wrong and what is right. This lockdown impacted a lot of people in different ways. It affected me as well and its impact will stay with us forever.

This letter is addressed to a five year older version of me. Are you any different from the present me? I bet you are. We humans have a natural tendency of changing. We have evolved from being and living as monkeys (homo-habilis) and then now as human beings; walking on two legs and communicating with words. We have evolved from sending posts to liking each other’s social media posts, from sending letters to sharing memes. A single human changes a number of times in his life, and when I say this I don’t mean the hormonal or physical changes. I say psychological changes, mindset changes, and behavioral changes. I  remember talking with every other person I met or fighting with any second person who crossed me, I remember crying when someone raised even a bit of voice at me, I remember dancing, singing, and acting in different activities.  And I guess you are nothing like this. You have evolved to be a woman, who is apparently in her mid-twenties, trying to be somebody. Struggling with being in your mid-twenties? I wonder. I hope the aunties nearby you are not keeping track of your age and relationship status.

I have taken a lot of decisions in my life and I am still taking them. There will come a time when I will have to make a choice, decide between two things, or make crucial decisions, I hope whatever I choose is better for us. I hope my decisions are not letting you down. I know I won’t stop working hard and trying to have fun as much as I’ll try to make your life ie. Our future life, safe. If you ever time travel back to me, I wish to see you happy and content and the only reason you traveled back would be just to experience time travel. I wish to not say the dialogue Thor’s mom said in Avengers: Endgame, “The future hasn’t been kind to you, has it?”.  I hope in these five years things have changed widely, the pandemic being ended, and its effects plastered. I hope things have changed socially where you don’t have to explain why you are not yet married, why you are a working woman, and why you wearing a Western outfit isn’t illegal. A place where you are free to live, free to breathe.

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I hope you are living the life we dreamt about. I hope the future is as it is supposed to be;  for me future is development, it is progress, it is upliftment, it is a level up, a good place, a better place. I hope you are something today from the nobody you were and even if you are still trying, still struggling, still trying to make your place in this world, I am there for you. I am you and I will always be with you. And I believe in us, I believe in myself. Name me a better pair than your soul and your body, I’ll wait. We will keep growing, keep learning and keep fighting. And if you feel alone, just close your eyes and you will hear me.

I pray for your good health, I pray for people who are good to you and stay with you forever. I will keep trying to make this world a better place for you to live. And if you ask me how? I’d say by bettering my own soul. If I myself is not a clean soul, a pure human being, how can I even expect others to be? And when I say pure and clean, I mean a person with no hate for anyone, a person who forgives and seek forgiveness for her mistake, a person kind enough to apologize and human enough to care. When I say pure and clean, I mean a person with humanity.

And if you don’t find yourself to be like this, don’t be disappointed because you failed, be proud that you tried. And it is still not late. Get it together, get your mess cleaned, get in front of a mirror, and scream, “You Are The Best And You Are Going To Make It. You Are Strong And Brave, You Are Kind And Loving, You Are Wise And Pretty. You Will Make It Happen. You Are Beautiful Because You Seek Purity And Justice. Have Faith And Have Belief”.

And if you have achieved whatever we dreamt of, stand in front of the mirror and repeat, “I did it. I conquered what I wanted. Is this enough? Yes, maybe. Will I thrive for more? Yes, I will. Am I proud? Enough to stay on my grounds”. Look around for people who love you and care about you. Are they with you? If yes, then cherish them, and celebrate their presence. And if no, then question why? Did you lose people whom you treasured to find the materialistic treasure? If yes, then get back on track. Go get them back because no money will stay with you, no object will be there by you forever.

Because you won’t ask yourself and because you would lie to others, let me ask this and be honest, “Are you happy? Are you healthy? Are you, you?”. Take care and always remember, you aren’t alone and you are loved by a lot of people. YOU MATTER. And if you have survived this long, honey you are strong!

Lots of love, wishes, and support,

YOU.

“On a morning I woke up,
With a will to stand up,
I looked around and I saw nothing,
Was this the starting of something,
I took a deep breath,
And cherished the life I had,
For I have the world to conquer,
Being so much less than a beginner,
On a morning I woke up,
With a will to stand up,
For this time I was a step ahead,
That I shall never forget,
I am me, and I shall be the best.”

By,

Humaira Kazi.

[PS: I dedicate this blog to my sister on account of her 22^nd birthday]

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